What is REALLY going on?

In the last month or so, every time I turn on the news-there is some natural disaster going on somewhere on this small planet of ours.

It is snowing in MAY no less, where it has never snowed before. Places where tornado's and hurricanes are extremely rare are almost a daily occurrence.

Our economy is collapsing on top of itself with no relief in site. I am NOT at all satisfied with any of the potential presidential candidates that I have to choose from. Obama umms too much when he has to talk on the fly-none of that eloquence I am used to hearing from him. Back at the Democratic National Convention in 2004, I vowed to vote for this dude if he EVER ran for the office of the presidency. But I expected him to run in 2012. He is holding his own right now, but l can't feel 100% confident behind him.

I signed up to volunteer for him A YEAR ago and let me tell you-the people that I have come across are all about standing behind status as opposed to standing behind the candidate and the real issues.

I am pissed off DAILY at Hillary. The flip flopping and lawyering and grasping at the non-sensical issues- ANNOY ME. The playing up to whatever the media has as the "issue of the moment" she jumps right on it. Bill isn't helping her cause either. The more he speaks the more I feel vindicated for not trusting his behind. In my mind, he isn't "America's First Black President" or honorary black man. He is a smart man who knows how to tread and charm. He makes Hillary look like she can't stand on her own. I have always admired Hillary- but lately she is losing ground with me.

John McCain isn't even an option. I am NOT voting Republican this election. I cannot and will not support a man who has a hot temper, whose wife won't reveal her taxes, a man who absoluely hasn't tried to embrace the black community nor support the MLK holiday. No thanks.

My vote IS going to come down to Obama and Clinton. I need to see some REAL action and hear Real Solutions as how this country is going to start to heal-and BRING JOBS BACK TO THE USA!!

So, as I watch catastrophes on the television, I find myself praying harder and more real than I have ever done so before.

For the first time in my life, I am honestly frightened. For the first time as an American, I can no longer look away and keep up false hope that things are going to get better. I see more unemployment, more foreclosures, Walmart and Costco are rationing food-man this isn't The Great Depression! People are not taking medication because they have to choose between life and homelessness! Gas is four bucks a gallon!

Yes, I am praying much harder.